Thursday, September 28, 2006
Friday, September 22, 2006
Fools!
The irony is that Bush won the stupidity award this year. Who knows, next year it might be Bush-arraf!
Thursday, September 21, 2006
Tagged..
I am thinking about... a nice vacation to nj during the october long weekend and a nice semi-vacation to winnipeg, Manitoba during the nov 10-12 weekend to meet shahina siddiqui! Anything nice to kickback and relax at. (our plans never work out if we plan them, so im trying not to think abt them too much and keep it as spur of the moment as possible!)
I said... i can't stand mice!
I want to... go for hajj and get my degree completed and get liscence sorted!!!
I wish... it was easy as typing it out!
I miss... my parents and S & N! :'( (the most)
I hear... cars outside.
I wonder... what goes through the mind of a murderer/rapist when he actually considers doing something so heinous and digusting!
I regret... nothing that I want badly enough.
I am... a mother, a daughter, a wife, a social worker, a business woman, a student, a volunteer, a daughter in law to four women and on the bright side... a fan of flourescent green and bright orange!
I dance... like a leaping frog!
I sing... horribly off tune!
I cry... rarely in public. i have a hard time displaying emotions in public, so its usually not until something touches me deeply.
I am not always... kind! *muahaha*
I write... to vent out everything on my mind.
I confuse... everything!
I need... a light blue sofa and two coffee tables from ikea!!
I should try... there's something id be dying to try for months! i found a friend at college who took lessons from a famous teacher and now she's agreed to give 15 minute classes to 6 of us, every monday, at school during our dinner break!!! i missed out on the first class this monday coz i wasnt feeling too great, but inshaAllah i'm starting next monday! even imran doesnt know exactly what it is, so until he finds out(dec 22nd inshaAllah!), i can't publicize it here! (that is if i even chooose to!:P) =)
i tag.. i dunno who'd do it. but sure: maryam, aasi, ayesha, cindi, naymz and bpc!
Sunday, September 17, 2006
Zen Living
Zen Living
1. Do not walk behind me, for I may not lead. Do not walk ahead of me, for I may not follow. Do not walk beside me either. Just pretty much leave me the hell alone.
2. The journey of a thousand miles begins with a broken fan belt and leaky tire.
3. It's always darkest before dawn. So if you're going to steal your neighbor's newspaper, that's the time to do it.
4. Never test the depth of the water with both feet.
5. If you think nobody cares if you're alive, try missing a couple of car payments.
6. Before you criticize someone, you should walk a mile in their shoes. That way, when you criticize them, you're a mile away and you have their shoes.
7. If you lend someone $20 and never see that person again, it was probably worth it.
8. Everyone seems normal until you get to know them.
9. The quickest way to double your money is to fold it in half and put it back in your pocket.
10. There are two theories to arguing with women. Neither one works.
11. Never miss a good chance to shut up.
12. Never, under any circumstances, take a sleeping pill and a laxative on the same night.
Saturday, September 16, 2006
It's only words...
Imo0o's Half says:
eesa's outgrowing his bed soon though
Imo0o's Half says:
he falls off alot
Imo0o's Half says:
and he moves alot in bed too
c m p... says:
i still roll outta mine so can't help you there
Imo0o's Half says:
lol
Imo0o's Half says:
i think i still would too if i wasnt married
Imo0o's Half says:
i have a big anchor sleeping next to me nowadays
c m p... says:
Imo0o's Half says:
lol
Imo0o's Half says:
i still cant believe im married
Imo0o's Half says:
four years and ababy later, im still getting to used to it!
Imo0o's Half says:
its more like living with a room mate at college
c m p... says:
good.. that means you're having fun
Imo0o's Half says:
only your roommate is a boy and ur mums ok with it!
c m p... says:
discoveries and excitement every day
Imo0o's Half says:
alhamdolillah yup!
c m p... says:
that's such a brilliant way of seeing it
Imo0o's Half says:
hmm
Imo0o's Half says:
overall, i love being married alhamdolillah
Imo0o's Half says:
altho i hate the term marriage/married etc
Imo0o's Half says:
sounds like a very restrictive word
Imo0o's Half says:
cohabitation! yup thats it!
Imo0o's Half says:
actually no... that sounds really dictionary-ish too!
c m p... says:
in most cases it is... you're lucky you can fit it into more manageable synonyms
Imo0o's Half says:
Masha-Allah yup!!
Imo0o's Half says:
a good friend of mine is living in a marriage where she cant come to love her husband
Imo0o's Half says:
but she has a child and she's 'loving' her marriage for the sake of fulfilling her duties
Imo0o's Half says:
may Allah swt reward her for her patience. Ameen
colour me purple... says:
i have friends like that too
Cosby
- Bill Cosby.
Friday, September 08, 2006
Patience is a virtue indeed....
Shezzi'd been eyeing these green sandals at Sportschek for 4 months - throughout the summer! But shezzi already had her fairly new ones from last year, so she didnt want to buy a new one. Sometime during the summer, Shezii saw those same sandals go on sale for 25% off. Shezzii held onto her wallet and resisted the urge to splurge.
But!!! Today shezii went to STC and her fave sandals were not on display. Her heart went *smashing smashing*.
She asked the salegirl, 'what happened to the green and grey sandals by gravity?'.
Salesgirl said, 'gravity came out with a new style for next summer so they've discontinued those ones'
(Shezii's heart went *banging banging*)
Shezii begged the salesgirl to help her locate one in any of the other stores in the area.
(Salesgirl be wery, wery nice.)
(She went into the store room and found shezii one, but it was a size too big.)
Shezii said she no mind!
Shezii asked 'how much?'
Salegirls said 'regular price, the sandals arent on sale anymore'.
Shezii gulped and said, 'it's ok! I'll still take them'
Shezii went to the cashier
Cashier said 'the sandals are on clearance. 75% offf!!!!!!!!!!'
BOOYAKA!
Shezii took a non stop flight, right up to cloud 9!
aaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!
A great end to a horrible week!
Look and Drool! =)
Thursday, September 07, 2006
May you rest in Peace...Ameen
Dadda ammoo, as we would call her, has always been the umbrella of our family. Every year, when we would go to Karachi for Eid, as soon as the men would return from prayers, we would drive off to meet her. My earliest memories remember her as a frail lady - graceful nonetheless. even when i met her earlier this year, close to her mid 90's in age, her skin was radiant and glowing mashaAllah. With her alive, we were five generations together in Karachi this year. Now we're down to four. =(
As i grow older, one by one, the people whom I cherish seem to keep passing on. I wish their wisdom retains somehow. I sometimes wish, to be able to just turn around and ask my grandfather for an advice. Or simply listen to him. Every so often, on fridays I still open my inbox hoping for an email from him. I wish, but oh do I wish, that I hadnt hit delete on those emails. I still have one or two. But many, many are gone. Every eid, I picture him returning from namaz, in his clean, crisp white starched shalwar qameez, handing out money. Eids here are never the same. I miss the festivites at my my grandparents house in karachi. Everyone taking the effort to get new clothes made. Getting matching accessories. Cousins going shopping together. Spending chaand raat trying to give the house a new look - from new curtains to cushion covers (hand emroidered by my daadi herself) to bedsheets. Everything new came out on eid - just watching my grandparents glow at the new look is a memory so priceless.
This year, as i was hugging my grandparents on my way to the airport in karachi, I couldnt help but wonder if we would ever meet again. As much as I missed Toronto, I wanted to hold on to them for a moment longer. I can still feel my naana's hands going over my head. The words of my naani's duas. Word by word. The tearful, warm embrace from my daadi. I can still picture my daadi standing at the door to the driveway, waving goodbye in tears.
Today, these memories are engraved in my soul as fine as death in my fate. I can close my eyes and re-live those moments to the minutest detail. The colour of my naani's sari. The softness of her hands. The shape of my naana's beard. The way amma(my daadi) rolled her eyes away to hide her tears.
The memories I have of Karachi with my grandparents, will never die. I wondered why I could hate a city so. I've realized it's out of my love that I hate it. I hate the fear and agony my loved ones live in, day after day. Sometimes I long to be wonderwoman. Just so I could flap my wings and fly out to be with my grandparents.
I hate death. I can't fathom it. I'm not afraid of dying but I don't like it when people die. I don't like living in the fear of knowing that someone close to me will soon no longer be. I remember a time when I used to pray that I die before those that are really close to me. Ever since I've learnt it's ungratefulness towards Allah swt, I've stopped praying that way. But I do pray that InshaAllah I have Barakah in the time I spend with everyone. ameen.
Have I ever mentioned how tough it is to live oceans away from your parents? It's at moments like these, you wish to be surrounded by your family. With those who truly understand what you're going through. It's at these moments that I wish i lived in karachi. and then...
And then, i think of a life without bijli aur paani (electricity and water) and roads with bumps (synonymous with Wonderland's DropZones) and mosques without women and shopping malls with molesters and gropers and then with a sigh, i silence my thoughts and say Alhamdolillah!
I miss you and I love you. :x
p.s. i will NOT publish anonymous messages on this post. So kindly, don't bother.
Update..
Ran into aasi and moody this weekend while they were dropping rizzi at my in laws' place after their course. Everyone that's attended the course so far has really enjoyed it. InshaAllah we'll try to attend the next one. There's a speculation it's going to be on the Fiqh of love. I'm looking for something more knowledge intensive but I guess i'll settle on learning abt love for now!:P The stories everyone narrates from the classes are awesome. i heard one this weekend and i've been dying to share it o the best of my interpretation.
The story is about Umar (Rad) who was one of the strongest warriors of islam. He was known for his bravery and people actually feared him. One day, someone heard noises from his house. His wife was screaming at him. She was yelling and yelling. But Umar Rad was not doing anything to stop her. This infuriarted the eavesdropper alot. When Umar (rad) stepped out of his house, the eavesdropper asked him 'Why would you not control your wife?'. Umar (rad) replied, 'she is a good wife, she takes care of the kids, she takes care of me... etc etc. Every woman needs a lil venting. so let her vent'. AAAH! the wisdom!
speaking of wisdom. i have a new wisdom tooth growing. talk abt late! it's sooooo painful. I've been surviving on tylenol to keep the fever under control. poor hubby ordered shawarmas in last night and today came home early so i could catch some sleep while he looked after eesa. he made dinner too. we finally cooked brown food at home, people! lol. we've also been spraying airfresheners ever since. lol.
i've also tried to keep up with some organizing projects her eand there. it's ever so rewarding. The sense of accomplishment i achieve from clenaing and organizing is unbelievable. Comparatively i hate cooking. it's like u spend ages cooking and within minutes its gone. it's almost like pooping. you finally get your boats to float and then 'whosh!' you drown 'em out with a flush! (can you tell that I no longer live in a family full of girls?:P
oh and i've been trying to figure out a system to organize my makeup and accessories. i have this big ugly jewlelry box that i currently use to keep my makeup but now my sis wants the box (and im only too glad to get rid of it). anyone have any good ideas? i keep a transparent shoe organizer in my front closet to hold our winter gloves etc. In two of those pockets i keep a bottle of perfume and lotion each. and in the third one, i keep some clips and a colored lipgloss and liner. they help out for a quick fix before i open the door for I. but i need a system in my closet or dresser to organize and hold my other stuff. any ideas anyone?
apart from that... picnic this sat! reach;) hhaha! me gone!