2006 - things i want to do!

Ever since my grandfather passed away, i've been wanting to live my life to its utmost potential.

1. Learn to ski
2. Get my driver's lisence sorted out
3. Volunteer more
4. take a guided tour of toronto
5. be more giving and forgiving
6. half full not half empty - re-align my perspective positively!
7. Go tobagganing
8. learn how to make a 5 course meal and invite friends/family over to enjoy it with them!
9. Re-read my enid blyton favorites... needless to say finish famous five first!
10. Adopt a pet
11. Wasaga beach.
12. Flowers.
13. learn how to change a tire
14. donate blood
15. Find time to sort out inner emotions and somehow squeeze in forgiveness for 'S' and 'J'
16. Hang out on our balcony - who knows if we'd be living in an aptmt next yr!
17 . Play board games with family and friends
18. Go Curling
19. Don't go to wonderland - RESIST!:P
20. Go bowling
21. have more sleepovers! hehe
22. Apologize
23. Get reaquainted with my side of the family - relatives i miss out on!
24. Fundraise for ARISE! =)
25. Do hajj
26. dont hold ur piss for longer than neccessary! lol. (LONG story)
27. picnic at lakeshore - blanket, rugs, books and all!

Latest Seatbelt...

How rude!!

I might...

be coming ot pak next week after all =P

BN has passed away :(

A lonely figure.

Always clad in white. Silent.

BN was someone we always visited when we went to pak. Being a child, i never really interacted with her much. Years ago, i used to see her in her room, watching some paki drama or the other. Over the years she became ill and soon became deaf. Silenced from the world. Unable to read or write, she became a walking piece of meat - seen but not heard! Devalued. Unable to do anything anymore, she spent most of the last ten years lying on her bed sky gazing. silently awaiting her death.

Widowed at the age of 18 in 1948 after a few months of marriage, childless, doomed by the fate of her culture which enforced the 'muslim satiya' on her. Clad in white, robbed off from the rights to wear jewellry or make up, not really considered eligible enough to remarry.

Culture. Unbearable.

Sometimes, I wish i could go back in time and talk to her. Give her company. Hear her. I feel guilty. I feel as though i was a part of this. A criminal to inhumane treatment. I wish to retrace my childhood, only being closer to the people i ignored or did not value enough. Not to say i did not respect her, but i dont think i valued her either. I wish I had given her more time. I wish I had spoken to her more - heard her atleast.

I wish.. I wish

Random Ramblings..

Ok... so i've bullied everyone into blogging but have been procrastinating myself! =)

Perhaps its because I havent been doing much these days. I've picked up a few harlequins/mills and boons for lazy reads but thats about it.

I've also convinced imo to adopt a pet. we're having silent arguments on whether its going to be a fish or a cat.

more for tmrw..!
signing out,
*~Sheza~*

Calling bloggers across the globe...

Insi, khizzy, jammie, kay, tez, hinamommy, bakpakchic, sam etc etc... (forgive me if i didnt mention ur name.. u were on my mind, just not my finger:P)

PLZ BLOG EVERYDAY! hehe i go crazy flipping thru everyones blog 10 times a day - JUST IN CASE U BLOGGED! lol. i was telling insiya its a blessing i dont have most of u on my msn or i'd msg 24/7 complaining ''khizzy!!! blog karo!! kay blog karo!!"

Blog People!

2005

Its been over a year! whoppeee!!! Our baby lasted with us for a whole year! Considering imo0o's passion for the latest and trendiest, i had no idea he'd actually live thru our Speed for a WHOLE year! whooohoo!! From east to montreal to west towards new york and further onto new jersey, our baby accompanied us through the adventurous, bumpy and joyful 2005!